Two Good Eggs

Two cracked eggs find the sunnyside (and funny side) of trying to conceive

I think my oven’s broken.

on October 26, 2012

Have you ever tried to bake a cake, and knew with 100% confidence that you followed the recipe to the letter, only to have it turn out like this:

That’s how I feel after my first follicle check.  Inexplicable failure.  I think my oven’s broken.

I did all of my shots to the letter.  While traveling and juggling a crazy schedule away from home.  I went for my follicle check after 4 days of Follistim and Menopur shots.

Left side:  EMPTY.  Zero.  Nada.

Right side:  one teeny tiny follicle hanging out sad and alone, because a MONSTER cyst had reappeared and was sucking all the meds for its own nourishment.  A cyst, mind you, that had just painfully been drained a week before.

Bastard.

I felt so defeated.  My doctor told me that this could go one of two ways, and it’s too soon to tell yet which way it will be.

1.  The cyst could just be a nuisance, and it may be too soon for the follicles to have developed (some people are slower developers than others); or,

2.  The cyst could be hogging all the meds and cannibalizing the follicle development.

If it’s number 2, we have to kill this cycle and wait another month before trying again.

My doctor has increased my dosage to see if he can stimulate the follicles over the next couple of days.  I’m going back on Saturday for an ultrasound to see if Cyrus the Cyst is still at the all-you-can-eat buffet, or if he’s spreading the love to his little follie friends.

I’m praying that the follies are getting their drink on right now, because I already feel so defeated.  If I have to kill this cycle and wait another month to even get started, well… that’ll just take the cake.

The shitty, floppy, inedible cake.  From my old, broken oven.


11 responses to “I think my oven’s broken.

  1. ivfmale says:

    Well that sucks.
    Did the doctor say when he would know?

    • Scrambled says:

      I did an increased dose last night, and will do another tonight. I go back at 8:15 am tomorrow (Saturday). He’ll know then if the increased dosage is working enough to keep trying, or if the cyst is the only thing growing. I’m trying to be hopeful, but I have a bad feeling we’re going to be killing this cycle 😦

  2. Georgette says:

    Forgive me… I forget. How old are you? what protocol are you doing? Have you ever considered trying agonist/antagonist conversion protocol with estrogen priming?

  3. Courtney says:

    This sucks! I am so sorry you’re dealing with this. Hopefully you don’t get cancelled, but if you do, let’s hope they learned something that can be used to change your protocol and make it more successful!

  4. SunnySide says:

    Have I told you lately how much I love your writing? Although I’m bummed to know all this is going on, you still had me laughing. Cyrus the Cyst! ….and you made me want cake. You’re not broken, honey. You just have an asshole foreign body that needs evicting! Love to you! We will get there… PS: “Bitchass” I know that word makes you smile. and “Pussybag” because it makes me smile. Xoxo

  5. Stay strong! I feel your pain and am going through something similar. Had my first round of Follistim back in August and no follicles matured enough to make things happen. Went back in September to start over only to find out I had a 34mm cyst, so I had to sit out another month and see if it would disappear. Just went back last week, that cyst went away on it’s own, but another one, on my other ovary appeared – 49mm. Another wasted month sitting around waiting for my body to stop sucking. If nothing else, know you’re not alone!!

    • SunnySide says:

      I know this comment is for Scrambled, but I wanted to tell you that I spent a lot of time browsing through your blog earlier this week and I absolutely love it. Thank you for taking the time to read ours 🙂

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